Looking both ways

I’m sitting and writing this in the days between the solstice and the New Year. Those strange, delicious in-betweenness days which, according to legend, are bonus dates that extend the 360 degrees of the horizon’s circle into the 365-ish days of the solar year.

I’m grateful that, as I reflect on the year that is on its way out, I’ve been so fortunate. Especially in Euro-American culture we tend to believe that what happens to us is the results of our choices, and up to a point that may be true. However, much of what happens in our lives is the result of conditions around us, and innumerable other factors over which we – in the sense of our consciousness awareness or even our ability to plan – wield little control. (I am reminded of an interview with the Duke of Westminster in which he wisely suggested that the best way to get rich in the UK was to have an ancestor who was friends with William the Conqueror.) I therefore praise the Goddess Fortuna for her favour.

My good fortune last year consisted of many opportunities to work with remarkable people. This is one way I endeavour to roll with the capricious Wheel of Fortune, by surrounding myself with wonderful friends, allies, colleagues and collaborators. I get to do cool stuff in part because I make it my business to hang out with wonderful humans, to be inspired, cared for, recruited and raised up by them. Amazing collaborations in 2023 included with the team of Breaking Convention and our first conference at the University of Exeter, the members of the Order of the Sun and MoonThe Fungi AcademyThe Magical Pact of the Illuminates of Thanateros and many others. I was able to travel in 2023 to attend the MAPS conference in Denver, as well as Music, Magic & Medicine and Occulture in Berlin. Meanwhile I’ve been invited to contribute to the emerging academic fields of occult studies, psychedelics and philosophy and esoteric art. I’ve been administered intravenous DMT for an hour at Imperial College, and taught local NHS wellbeing programs. My strategy, such as it is, is to put myself in the right place (physically, psychologically etc) and then just wait for amazing things (collaborations, situations, inspiration etc) to arise. This echoes the view of my Tai Chi teacher, quoting his teacher Cheng Man-ching, that to access the power of chi all you had to do was put yourself in the right place and then it will just turn up. The analogy being catching a bus; you have to get to the right bus stop but once you’re there just be patient, and get on board when it arrives.

Find the allies

I recognise my privilege in all this, in all the opportunities I have been able to access. I thank Fortuna for the chance to doing things I love with people I respect, admire and whose company I enjoy. My happiness, as I reflect on 2023, is also born of the perception that some of the things I’ve done have helped others. For example, at the Breaking Convention conference Nikki and I had more than one person tearfully express to us how grateful they were to be in a setting in which their interest in psychedelics was accepted and indeed celebrated. For me it’s both a source of honour and of delight to be able to do this work which I consider an expression, speaking with my pointy occultist hat on, of my Great Work. Meanwhile for those who missed the conference itself, the talks from Breaking Convention 2023, like those of previous years, are all available free on YouTube.

Me on intravenous DMT, for science, selecting my post entity-encounter lunch.

I’ve also been honoured to directly support the next generation of psychedelic sitters by teaching on programs curated by Daniel ShankinLaura-Dawn, and Natasja Pelgrom.

2024 looks like it is set to be equally busy in a good way, here are a few things that are already scheduled:

I’ll be speaking at The Occult Conference in Glastonbury, 17-18th of February in person, and the following weekend I’ll be part of the online Sacred Mycology Summit curated by The Fungi Academy, 23-25th February.

I’m facilitating a psychedelic retreat in The Netherlands with the excellent Nurse Jo and other very experienced space holders (Jo’s blog is here). This will be immediately after the Breaking Convention 2024 one-day event in London. For details of the BC event follow them on social media so you can grab a ticket once these go live, or sign up to their newsletter.

If you’re interested in joining me in the Netherlands for our retreat, which is specifically for psychonauts who want to develop their space holding skills, please drop me a message. The dates for this are Monday 22nd until Saturday 27th of April.

Meanwhile on the artistic front, there is another exhibition scheduled for The Order of the Sun and Moon, once again in St Ives, this time from the 9th to 15th of November. We’re also planning a show in London earlier in the year, details are yet to be confirmed so watch this space for updates.

The illustrated volume of essays by the Order of the Sun and Moon with foreword by Judith Noble remains available via Amazon. Contact me direct if you want one of the rare signed copies, or one of the editions that contain original artwork by Greg Humphries.

I was really chuffed that so many people attended the opening night, that visitors to the gallery keep the place buzzing for a week, and that I sold several pieces. The artworks that I produce for sale can be found on the gallery page of my website and you can see the pieces from the St Ives show here.

Kate Southworth, Greg Humphries and me in The Crypt Gallery, St Ives, Cornwall.

Also via my website I’ve got three inexpensive self-directed courses available (in fact one of them is completely free) and I’m working with the excellent Dave Lee to shortly add an extensive course on chaos magic too. Dave incidentally has just published another excellent book, Primal Chaos: Writings and Rituals from Then and Now through Nikki Wyrd’s publishing house The Universe Machine.

Finally, I’m going to be doing lots of online esoteric workshops with Treadwell’s Books (coming up next New Year’s MagicScryingChaos Magic and Psychogeography), Morbid Anatomy (Chaos MagicSigil Magic, and Navigating Psychedelic Space), Viktor Wynd (An Introduction to Aleister Crowley, and Thelemic Magick) and The College of Psychic Studies (details coming soon). Stay tuned to my social media for more details.

Thanks for taking the time to catch up with my news! Now it’s back to the excellent home-made mince pies, baked and photographed by the ever skilful Nikki Wyrd…

The pies have it!

I hope that you found good fortune in 2023, and wish you a fabulous and flourishing 2024.

Big Love!

Julian

Pleasure, Power, Addiction and Connection

In this season of Beltane everything is alive and buzzing, or, to quote Austin Osman Spare in The Logomachy of Zos, “all things fornicate all the time”. This phase of the year is about sexuality or, more broadly, a celebration and exploration of pleasure and connection as the brighter, warmer weather opens us up to the possibility of summer. We begin to gather together, to come into closer, joyful, even ecstatic relationships. Although this year traditional gatherings, such as the Padstow May Day ceremony, have been absent as they were in 2020, things are changing. As the pandemic in Britain wanes (or is conveniently forgotten…) communities are slowly re-establishing their physical connections. Hugs are a thing again as the bonds of love and care are re-kindled in the flesh. Our desire for others, whether romantic or otherwise, our hunger for communion grows as the forest canopy opens to the sun.

Facts of life

I’ve written recently about the delicate nature of this time. The need for us all to cultivate tolerance for others and kindness towards ourselves. With our reduced cognitive capacity – caused by fear, isolation and loss – tempers may be somewhat shorter than usual. Our emotions can – and indeed in some cases should – over spill the banks of our usual decorum as we bear witness to these difficult days.

When we consider our social connections, it’s helpful to remember that spending time with our peers, our kin and with affable strangers, is what our biology yearns for. Social interaction makes us feel well, it’s a pleasure, a buzz, an essential part of being human. Even if we feel comfortable when we are alone, we still live lives profoundly embedded within the social network of human relationships. (The very fact you are reading this with language and literacy that came from your culture into your mind, and which structures your thoughts, is a clear demonstration of this fact.) Social connection, which can take many forms, is something we all crave. In fact some of the processes that drive our damaging addictive behaviours are exactly the same ones that encourage us to seek social, and indeed sexual, connection. These processes within our bodyminds are mediated by endogenous opioids. These opium-like chemicals, produced in various structures in the body, arise into consciousness creating the feelings of a warm comforting hug from our dearly beloved and, importantly, feeding our desire to feel these feels.

No substitute for connection with others

It is precisely for this reason that exogenous opiates (opium and its derivatives such as morphine), and synthetic opioids (like fentanyl) are so addictive. The sense of comfortable calm and pleasure we are wired to experience when in social communion can be hijacked by the comfortably numb refuge of addiction if we are lonely. Neuroscientist Rachel Wurzman brilliantly explains the relationship between loneliness, addiction, opioids and social connection in her TED presentation of 2018. Understanding the work of Wurzman and colleagues is of course even more pressing in this time of pandemic.

To reiterate that point; our desire for social and sexual pleasure dwells, in part, within the same neurological and social structures from which addictions emerge when we are lonely and therefore suffering,. And while there are additional factors when it comes to understanding addiction, the critical pathway is undoubtedly the one that Wurzman describes. 

Exploring our desires and our pleasures is an important part of the magical path. Many of us come to magic because it offers the possibility of answering our needs. Magic, at least for the beginner, may be imagined primarily as a means to an end. I desire a new job so I make a sigil and, abrahadabra! it manifests! The limitation with this approach is that it starts from what ‘I’ want but doesn’t address the question of who is this ‘I’ that does the wanting?

As we deepen our engagement with magic most of us move away from a focus on simplistic instrumental or operative magic. Desire becomes broader and in a sense deeper too. We may still do spells for particular outcomes in the world but we are perhaps more likely to focus these around acts of personal and cultural transformation. We are likely to develop desires that are less attached to our immediate personal circumstances but are part of a bigger picture. Acts of larger scale political magic and longer-term processes of cultural change become more significant than our relatively petty, and frequently transient, personal needs. Magic becomes more about capacity, the development of enhancements to our abilities to nourish ourselves and those around us; and the ability to be fully present in, and successfully adapt to, the circumstances of our lives. This is the work of illumination. Carl Jung writes about this process in his Collected Works stating “… all the greatest and most important problems of life are fundamentally insoluble…. They can never be solved, but only outgrown…“

The liberation from suffering, and the journey into states of illumination and bliss, are key themes in many spiritual traditions. Eschewing the focus on suffering and attachment that Gautama Buddha foregrounds, both Austin Osman Spare and Crowley – echoing the Tantric tradition – focus on the role of pleasure as a means to liberation. Crowley writes that ‘all acts of love and pleasure are rituals’. His words beautifully adapted by Doreen Valiente into the Wiccan Charge of The Goddess, “Let my worship be within the heart that rejoiceth, for behold: all acts of love and pleasure are my rituals.” Abiding in the state of bliss is, in some senses, the aim of Tantric practices in which the non-dual approaches of that tradition seek to reveal the ecstasy of existence in all forms of manifestation.

(Ian Baker – the lead curator of Tibet’s Secret Temple exhibition at the Wellcome Collection, London – provides a great introduction to non-dual Tantrism in this documentary and particularly discusses bliss states at 52:40.)

Such potentially ecstatic feelings, where we feel profoundly connected to all things, are of course available through a variety of ways of altering consciousness including the intelligent use of psychedelic drugs. But this process isn’t a Polyanna-ish acceptance that all is well in the sense of requiring no action. Rather these states also allow us to discern how we might address the barriers that stand between us – all of us – and a deeper sense of connection and therefore bliss. As an example of this process in action check out this wonderful interview with Rick Doblin of the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies. In his tale Rick recounts psychedelic insights from decades ago that inspired him to work for the rehabilitation of psychedelics as medicines (the key section is at 03:36).

Expanding our capacity for pleasure is far from the rapacious and empty pursuit of the bigger and better buzz. Or as Crowley puts it in The Book of The Law, “…refine thy rapture!…if thou love, exceed by delicacy; and if thou do aught joyous, let there be subtlety therein!” Developing an engagement with desire and pleasure means developing the capacity to feel more deeply (remember that the root etymology of the word ‘magic’, while often given as ‘power’ can equally be described as ‘capability’). Taking delight in the great mystery of existence, cultivating our capacity to experience that delight in daily life, and to work to support that capacity in others, are all essential. The aim is to feel more fully, to refine ourselves so that the freedom, pleasure and power of the world is accessible in every moment and not just in the high-octane experiences we may encounter. Psychedelics can be catalysts of this, where our changed perception can remind us of the remarkable mystery of the simple things; the water we drink, the sky we live beneath, the warmth of the hearth fire, the flow of the breath through our bodies, the touch of the beloved.

A seasoned magical approach to manifesting this bliss doesn’t require us to become some kind of results magic Übermensch. Rather the process is to connect with a desire that isn’t selfish in the usual sense but rather transpersonal. The ‘I’ that does the desiring, in our example of siglized results magic, recognizes that it is intimately interdependent with all those other ‘I’s, and that distinctions between self and other are arbitrary and impermanent. Pleasure therefore, in its fullest sense, cannot be at the expense of others (be they human people or other beings).

I connect

From this understanding grows an ethic and practice where, to quote Spare again – this time from The Focus of Life – we ‘embrace reality by imagination’. We use magic not so much to grasp for things, nor to push them away, but rather to develop our capacity to be fully present in this single existence we share, and to change that in ways that allow us to access increasing bliss.  In doing so magic moves from being something that looks like a series of gamer cheat codes into something much deeper. A process by which we seek to be fully ourselves not at the expense of others but in community with them. We put aside our understandable but ultimately debilitating addictions and instead thrive on a diet of authenticity, full presence and pleasure. We seek to cultivate these abilities in all of us and for that reason the dedication of our Great Work to the liberation of all beings is actually the only game in town.

I feel this delight in my own life is when I’m able to share practices in ways that are accessible and beneficial to others. As an example, a couple of days ago I received an email from a student on my First Steps in Magic course:

“I wanted to let you know that I have been working your classes and wanted to let you know what I think as someone that is deaf. I love them.

I have been part of this whole witch world since I was very young ….when I had sound and heard a voice no one else did. It has been many years…..as I now walk in that golden age…these inspired some splendid new ways to continue to grow. These are not just beginner classes on magick this is also about revisiting and re-inspiring the magick that we have. This has been delightful.

I really appreciate your videos and that fact that you accompany it with the course notes. I can see that you speak clearly and concisely and that matters.  I need that as hearing is far more challenging in the real world.  I love the re-inspired directions you have brought me and hope that you will continue to offer more.  

I am not done with them yet but as I do them I am constantly impressed and really just felt bold enough to share that with you. I wonder if that is more of the magick I am re-learning from you….where else will it show up I wonder? Thanks so much.”

In recent months I’ve also been translating some of the techniques I’ve learned in an esoteric context into language more suited to a wider audience. This has enabled me to share esoteric practices in mainstream health care settings to support mental health and wellbeing. I’ve been pleased to receive some touching feedback about how these practices have helped people.

My experience as a teacher and occultist is a microcosm of the wider picture. Methods formerly known as esoteric technologies – psychedelic journeywork, meditation practices, breathwork, guided visualization (previously called ‘pathworking’) and more – are entering mainstream culture. Given the trauma that both recent events and historic situations have generated, empowering people to access these techniques seems to me to be vital work. These techniques, this magic, can help us transform our isolation into connection and bliss. May we each find the right way to discover and follow our bliss.

Wishing you well with your Great Work

Julian Vayne


Coming Up Next…

Online:
Julian is teaching at Treadwell’s Books about Gods, Spirits and Servitors and The Thoth Tarot.
Julian will also be taking part in the Fungi Academy Integration Circle on 1st June.
The My Magical Thing video documentary project continues to grow, subscribe to the Deep Magic YouTube channel for updates.

And in the physical world:
Psychedelic Press Journal, with Nikki Wyrd at the editorial helm, continues to present cutting edge literary psychedelia.